So freeeeeeeeing.

I wanted to wait a while before I made an update on being off my social media, mostly because I didn’t want it to be based stickly off emotion, or adrenaline in a sense but I wanted it to be something I’ve walked out, prayed about and truly got “delivered” from. I’ve been off for a little over 2 weeks (can’t believe it’s even been that long, feels like literally one day) && I’ve never felt more peace, joy, and freedom in my life. Sounds silly too people who still believe the lie that they “aren’t addicted” or it doesn’t “control their everyday lives” but those of you who SEE, you know what I mean. The first couple days I felt kinda bummed, I felt like I was missing out on life. Missing out on my friends, the babies, announcements, you know the “stuff”. But then the thought hit me (which I really had to pray about and change my way of thinking) – what is life about, Alyssa? Like what am I really missing out on if I delete it all? Because being on my phone/ social media.. IS making me miss out on life. My life is my family, my everyday, changing diapers, talk to a few close friends, do errands, do laundry, have my time with God.. And why should I sacrifice the REALNESS of ALL that, for a chance to look at other people’s lives, some that I hardly even met one time? When you put it into God’s persepective, you see your life, your time, your addictions, your habits- all a lot clearer, and that’s pretty scary. I can’t describe the feeling of waking up with freedom, with the perfect peace and stillness that I feel throughout the day. It doesn’t matter what others are doing, where they are going, what they are eating and drinking.. I’m not “wasting my time looking for perfect picture worthy posts anymore”, I am enjoying the moment. I am spending time with my husband, we are talking in the car instead of being on Instagram all the time, having conversations, watching my daughter grow up, reading my bible WAYS more, having long prayer time with God. I think what really changed me the most about this whole thing, is learning what is real life & what is your “social” life. The day before I gave it up I was going back and forth with God and complaining to Him that I would miss out on life, that I felt for some reason my social life would completely end and I would just be a lonely hermit (lol, I always have to be so drastic with God 😂) sounds silly, but I really felt that. The main reason why I didn’t want to give it up is because I felt like If I wasn’t posting that some how my life just wouldn’t exist. I feel like I have been completely deliverd from all needs or wants to be on social media. I am able to just lay in bed without being on my phone, I am able to pray and feel so close to God, I am not sharing my devotion for God, my husband or family with any sort of distraction, I have been delivered of this “hipster social life” (the best way I could describe it lol= the need for constantly wanting to make my life seem so cool on ig, the pictures we post have to be perfect, with the proper wording, best editing& angle, fashion on point Ya knowwwww) when you actually get free from all that, it’s amazing. You feel light, peace in your mind, and you can truly enjoy the moment. It’s even convicted some people around me, to get off social media for a time, make a point to put the phone down, or even games on the phones to get deleted etc.. To get rid of all distractions in life! I didn’t do many blog posts on here for a reason too, I wanted a time to just be without a phone in general and not jump from one social thing to another (oh hey I can’t be on IG but I’m a blogger now- haha no) so I’m not a hermit, some might think it tho, I have a beautiful life, and I’m enjoying what’s around me. Everyone should try it. 👍