lys&ladies

Today while I was dealing with my own emotions, my own “self pity” & mood swings I felt like God instantly rebuked me -“It only takes one time Alyssa”.

Now….I could easily blow that off “I was busy” or “they did this & that etc” to make dumb excuses for myself. But no, I sat there and let that phrase fully process with my spirit. I realized that as simple as it sounds, it is so complex. Literally, this one morning of not praying (serious, deep time) & reading my bible has opened up every door to the enemy for discouragment, being annoyed & frustrated with people, being sad & comparing my life, feeling overwhelmed, speaking rude & having zero patience..all things that normally don’t bother me one bit..<but that is because I’m usually where I NEED TO BE with GOD> I was quickly reminded of where I was at emotionally 6 years ago when God found me, my state of being was fragile wrecking ball (to say the least lol) emotional & rude, I had zero patience for people who “acted weak” or were super sensitive…and to be honest, when I dont pray (even one time) those are the exact traits that start to flare up. I feel like God kinda shook me “that attitude looks a lot like the old Alyssa” ah! That is scary enough to stop me mid thought lol!

We all try so hard to shed our old flesh (at least I do) but what we have to remember is it is a DAILY WALK, not a one time prayer. “Oh God crucify my old flesh. Make me new” lol yeah that’s good for a second with God but living it out is different. God can change us in an instant, don’t get me wrong (He did it for me) but it is my CHOICE if I will daily live it out, or go back to my old ways of thinking/acting. All it takes is truly one moment of vulnerability or laziness to get you off your spiritual walk. Sin, or no sin involved…not spending quality time with God is ENOUGH to get you distracted from what God has called you to do.

It’s the “still small voice” of God that leads, guides, corrects, rebukes & helps us. Through that voice we will realize “wow, I’m not where I need to be with God” or “I shouldn’t be thinking this way, I need to pray” etc. The more we LISTEN to Him the more we will FOLLOW Him. It is easy for me to respond to/hear my children, even when they are crying…because I know them. I know what they want, I know the difference in the cries, I know what they need to be doing, & I can even interpret ‘mumbled toddler talk’ (as hard as it is lol). I spend time with them, I communicate all day long with them & spend time teaching, talking and comforting them….kinda like the Holy Spirit does for us. He is our voice of reason when we feel on edge, He is our answer, He is our comforting words when we are crying & He is the soft voice leading us back to The Father.

Life is all about “ONE TIME”

• “Remember that one time…?”
• “One time I tried this..”
• “It was so funny that one time that I..”
• “If it wasnt for that one time..”
• “that one time, changed my life forever..”

and probably a thousand other scenarios of a one time, memory or moment. I’m personally trying to make the most of these moments. To remember that all it takes is ONE TIME for something to change (for the good or the bad), ONE TIME for my focus to be off God, ONE TIME for me to get complacent & ONE TIME for me to miss an opportunity that God had for me. Make every second count for God.

-lys